happiness <3

I just wanted to say how happy I am.. It’s been a long time since I’ve been able to say that. Nothing is perfect and I am far from it. I know that there will be issues that come up dealing with friends or family, but I don’t want perfection because in order to be happy, it’s not about having everything perfect. It’s about looking around you, the people that make you happy and make who you are today. I can look around and say what a wonderful boyfriend I have. I adore him so much. He has done so much for me and I cannot thank him enough for his gratitude, loyalty and loving caring self. The friends I have, I cannot ask for more. I have the best of friends that will always take care of me, look out for me and never hesitate to give a shoulder to lean on. My dad has been through so much and I would not trade him for the world. I love each and every one of the people I hold close to my heart. The people that make me who I am today, I would not take any of it back. No matter what setbacks that may have occurred in the past, no matter what situations I have been through, this is where life has taken me and I will continue to move on. Life is a journey and what an adventure it has been! I love to stand up for what I want and I can honestly say that I have everything I need :) So no matter who tries to put me down, you will not succeed. Ultimately, my happiness is in my hands and I will not let anybody get in the way of that.

what a weekenddd!

So this past week I was trying to fully recover from a crazy halloween weekend! I did all my hw, finished my exams and finished my paper! I was happy too because I got a B+ on my paper and an A- on my last paper! WOOOOT! I’m doing a hell of a bang up job if you ask me! More than I expected anyway… HAHA

So Friday.. I decided to get some drinks in.. We played beerpong, high-low, got hella buzzed and the night was filled with fun! Not to mention how drunk my dogg got. He fell asleep sitting on the floor, bent over & wanted to throw up. HAHA. but we all have those nights.. my partnah on the other hand always falls asleep!

So saturday came! I had an adk event to attend as an associate! yipeee! my lovely kids got me a colts jersey that i absolutely adore! &my little sis got me a hello kitty bag that I now use for school! Thank youu all! <3 So what started out as just chilling in the party room.. I decided to drink with my cousin Allen. We were taking shots and I already had a few beers during the event. Somehow someway.. I end up pretty wasted. I was running around everywhere but since the time changed, I decided to drink even more. I got dropped off to my car and I drove home. But I felt so concentrated and safe. The moment I got home… It was pretty much a blur.. I remember eating chicken nuggets and having michi change me. What a wonderful night! WHAT A HUGE MISTAKE THAT WAS! My body totally punished myself with yack inducing gag reflexes that resulted in pain and suffering.. I was literally dying.. :( I decided to sleep in & I felt much better. I feel so old now.. I can’t drink like I use to :( I must be more careful..

So I told myself no more drinking for like a week.. But I’m so bored with nothing to do today. I am gonna hit up the bababayyy! &get some drinks in. I am not an alcoholic… :) I just love hanging out with my friends! <3

i love my boyfriend!! seventeen & going stronger than ever :)

rambling :)

I finally worked out today! it’s been like a gazillion years… BAHH! I always complain to my boyfriend that I am fat & he always calls me fat. He blames me for making him fat, PFFFT! He is the one to blame for ME getting fat! I always try to feed him but he always refuses to eat! Anyway… I hope this attempt in going to the gym regularly succeeds because every time I try, I somehow always fail. Something always comes up and then comes the rest of the excuses. I just need to suck it up and do the damn thing!

On a surprising note.. I’ve been such a good girl. I’ve been studying and doing hw like almost everyday except these past few days I may have been slacking.. haha. I just got super lazy but I’m still on top of it! I can’t wait for the school year to end, I have so much to look forward to! So many vacations and going away with the friends & the boyfriend! :D

This past weekend in vegas for halloween has really taken a toll on me.. I’m still so tired and I haven’t fully recovered.. It was definitely fun though! I would have changed one thing though.. if my boyfriend didn’t have to bust a mission and just be there for one night! I wish he was there with me on friday too!

well.. here comes my weekend! Plans have been made but these next two days will suck! I must finish hw, study for my exam and finish writing my paper before I can even think about getting a drink.. =X haha. Although a beer would be nice right now.. NOT! I am done now, ta-ta! <3

Love does not begin & end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up.

It has been forever since I’ve actually used one of these things.. Here comes my first! This quote is truly an inspiration. Love is all about growing up. We grow to love, to feel things we have never felt and to be someones other half. It is about conquering all the battles and obstacles because when you make it through that’s what makes it all the better. Sometimes we fight, we cry, we yell and hateful words can be exchanged but just know that at the end of the day all that truly matters is that you and your significant person still love each other<3 Love doesn’t have to be perfect for you to be happy, it just means you learn to deal with the issues and willingly put it behind you. Ultimately, love is a two way street and if you reach a dead end, I’d consider making a u-turn and switch paths… :)

I just realized how much I’ve missed blogging.. i’m so mushy! :D